Truly ALIVE!!



We all have our ups and downs; our super-fantastic, off-the-charts-with-awesomeness days, our “bleh” days, our tired days, our stressed days, our God-awful days, and our “I  wish I could start this day over” days…it’s how we choose to look at those days that separates the whiners from the winners.

For a very long time now, I wasn’t known as a cheerful child.  I had always been timid and sensitive in nature as a child.  I don't realise when life became serious for me or the exact moment that I had to grow up carrying what felt to be a heavy burden and responsibility for a child to bear.  It surely wasn't by choice but much rather due to the circumstances then.  I was lost, confused and felt very, very alone.  I was always a deep-thinker, but somehow my condition left me even more contemplative.  My heart felt very, very heavy and breathing sometimes was difficult..

The fact of the matter is that I am not always happy, but I realise that each moment that I’m not happy is a moment I’ll never get back.  I remind myself often that life can be taken away in the blink of an eye.  I think of this when I see a parent with children in their vehicle driving recklessly; when I see children being rude or insensitive to their siblings or parents; when I see best friends not speaking; when I see people so wrapped up in their own concerns that they treat everyone with disrespect and carelessness; I think of this when my feet hit the floor every morning.  And THIS helps me to try my damnest to be positive and happy.

I’m not a very religious person, but I am spiritual to a degree.  I believe with all my heart and soul that life is beautiful.  Every single second of every single day is a second that I want to remind myself to be happy, because that second will be gone in…well, a second.  I’ll never get it back.

Negativity and toxicity shouldn't have a place in my world.  I won’t tolerate it, I will not excuse it, I will remove it.  We all have struggles, tragedies, bad days, bad luck, health scares, illnesses, ailments, family feuds, financial concerns, traumatic experiences, losses, worries about our jobs or lack thereof…it’s how we deal with them that separates the happy from the miserable.

No, I understand.  We cannot be happy every single second of every single day.  But we can WANT to be happy, and do everything in our power to get there.  To not let anything or anyone get in our way.  To work hard and believe that what goes around DOES come back around.  I laugh a lot, I smile a bit, I cry occasionally, I feel deeply, I love genuinely, I am grateful, I am silly, I am witty, I am smart, I am sexy, I am confident, I have insecurities, I get frustrated, I get sick, I have health scares, I have bad mornings, I have bad hours, days, weeks, months and even YEARS, but I am always optimistic that I WILL get back to that place where I can say and firmly believe that “LIFE IS GOOD, BECAUSE IT IS LIFE”!

And if just because occasionally I’m not smiling doesn’t mean that I’m unhappy!